Tomorrow is my anniversary. Not my wedding anniversary. It’s the 5th anniversary of the day I woke up and realized something was very wrong. I had a good, solid 8 hours of sleep the night before, but I was unbelievably tired. I couldn’t really explain what was wrong with my eye, but something was definitely wrong with my eye. After my husband left for work and I got my kids off to school, I fell over on the sofa and stayed there – for 3 days. I was convinced it was the flu. A virus. Something that would work me over and leave.
It wasn’t – it was multiple sclerosis. And so the long, strange trip began. It has, in many ways, made me a much better person. I’m more compassionate, empathetic, stronger, more resilient, a better wife, mother, family member, and friend. It’s also made me appreciate every single day, and most every single thing. It has brought into focus a basic truth that we all share: live is short, enjoy it now.
I am staying on top of the newest treatments, the latest findings, the dietary changes that seem to make a difference, the exercise recommendations that help, the quieting of the mind that benefits the cog fog. I’ve made it my mission to share my findings and experiences with the FUMS community as well. Ah – the FUMS community. There’s a gift I never would have received were it not for MS. It’s such a giving, loving community, supporting each other and cheering each other on. It’s been an honor getting to know everyone and learn from so many people willing to give of their time and experience.
So, while this is a dubious date in my calendar, I celebrate it – not because it started me on the path of my illness, but because it woke me up to the gifts that this life has afforded me.
Do you celebrate or mourn the date on which you either knew something was wrong or received a diagnosis? Do you have a tradition that you follow on your “anniversary”? Please share your story in the comment section below. You can help others just by telling your story.
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February 6, 2013 at 1:42 pm
I only celebrate the fact that I’m still able to walk! I may look like the town drunk at times, but I don’t care. I’m alive! (in pain, most of the time), but walking, still driving, and doing all I can possibly do, until this nasty disease woops my ass, but I’m doing my best not to let it.